January 2012
1 post
Well, happy new year. >:)
Today was rather a simple day. i started recounting so many stuffs and the many happenings in my life in 2011. in the yaer of 2011, I learn so many things that i can hardly pen them down. i learnt how to live a credible life( though i am not a master of it as yet). i learnt to be a man of my own words. i learnt the importance of relying on God and having just that...
December 2011
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its christmas, yet again.
This year, is definitely a year of testing. I celebrated my Christmas eve silently at my cousin’s house. but honestly, i do appreciate the company we had. it’s the first time when i really get to talk to them as in there’s no tomorrow. LOL
But i could remember vividly how i spent my past few years Christmas eve going around Serangoon and carol. it is...
November 2011
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Finally, i am left with three papers before i can officially announce that i have conquer A level. This period of time is definitely a period of mental challenge rather than intellectual. Sometimes, i wonder why God allow me to fall sick during such period of time when healthy body plays a huge factor. But you knw, i kind of figured out the reason why.
Perhaps, by falling sick, i will give myself...
October 2011
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time flies, and it really does. i could remember vividly how two years back, around this period of my life, i was typing how reluctant i was to graduate from high school life. but guess what, i officially graduated from my jc life today.
it makes me feel excited but at the same time fearful. it makes me realize that i am one step nearer to stepping into the society. it makes me wonder yet again,...
September 2011
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Well, before i drown myself into Econs, i shall post something.
Went out with one of my closest friend today and as i recount back, i really thank God for this friendship we forged ever since the first day of our secondary life. We literally went through thick and thin together as i recount back those good and bad time we had.
i could remember how back then, the childish and immature us, can...
August 2011
2 posts
Well, tonight, i actually spent sometime watching this channel 8 drama which everyone commented that it’s super nice and such. but that drama sets my thinking so many think.
i wonder to myself, if this world is really that corrupted? Given a chance, i really want to go and see and witness such happening using my own eyes. it makes me wonder if fighting is always the solution to all problems...
finally, I am able to sit infront of the computer without having much worry about what i need to do next. life is getting so tough and tiring. honestly, it drains me up so much that at times, the idea of giving seems so tempting. again, i know it will be a super dumb thing to just give up at this very moment.
honestly, i really discovered so many things about myself during this period of time. so...
July 2011
2 posts
just ended hope conference and there’s too many thoughts running through my mind. i could remember vividly how much i struggle to get out of house on Saturday morning. part of me is so worry about the upcoming prelims. it makes me feel so uncertain and lost. but i chose to pack my stuff and went down to Stadium.
perhaps God always use such method to test my level of trust and faith in Him....
Well, let me blog down some of my thoughts before i hit the bed. life isn’t as smooth sailing as how i once thought. so many things are piling up and time seems to such a finite resource. just when i thought it’s time to accelerate my pace of life( i mean literally! fyi, i actually walk faster than usual!), i was reminded the need to slow down my pace of life and do some self...
June 2011
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Well, shall take some time to blog down my learning after reading ’ God is closer than you think’ by John Ortberg.
After reading the book, i find myself quite guilty of treating God for granted. God is always so evident in my life during good times when life is a bed of roses. If time permits, i will really wish to go somewhere closer to the nature. where i can set apart some time to...
May 2011
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shall type out a short post before proceeding with my night life.
well, today is really a day that sets me thinking about the things in my life. it makes me wonder what i want to be in the future. it makes me wonder how my life will be like the very next morning when i open my eyes. life is just filled with thousand and one unexpected predicaments that one can never imagine.
today went down to...
April 2011
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it’s been awhile ever since i last blog down my thoughts. seriously, life was never as smooth as what i once thought. sometimes, i start questioning myself what’s next despite scoring good results. no, i am not here to show off but i seriously thought of that before.
perhaps that’s life. we always have this inner desire to achieve more. we are never satisfied with what we have....
March 2011
1 post
:(
something’s wrong.
February 2011
2 posts
I am finally feeling that i am growing up. i am starting to get to see the superficial side of man. i am starting to doubt whether a man can really shower unconditional love besides God himself. Life is getting tougher and workloads are piling up.
I could remember vividly that my secondary school principle once said that ’ it just takes one person to make a different. ’ honestly, i...
finally, January came to an end. it was indeed a challenging month for me. first time in my life, i volunteered myself to be an ogl leading the freshman. the truth is, the past ruijun hates doing such stuff. i will tend to categorize such job as one that is lame and time consuming.
no doubt, orientation had consumed my entire Saturdays away for the entire month of January. Honestly speaking,...
January 2011
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Life is good when timetable shortens and there’s more free time. shall train myself to be more discipline !
God, please remind me constantly that You must be the reason why i am doing what i am doing.
feeling excited yet worried.
HAHA. that’s life mannnnn
December 2010
5 posts
felt a sense of accomplishment when i finished packing my j1 notes. then i realized that next year will be a terrible year. i will totally not be free on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
i hope everything goes well…
well, time flies. it literally flies. just few more days, i will be stepping into a brand new years with new challenges, new breakthroughs and new experiences. I was recounting how has 2010 been and many thoughts went through my mind. the truth is, those thoughts that went through my minds were not very positive.
i could remember vividly how much i struggle with so many things. at times, i hope...
whenever i listen to the song ’ in Christ alone’, somehow, it reminds me of life in hihs.
i miss those time slacking in class. but then again, it’s a nice song though..
November 2010
8 posts
I love Sundays ! :D
woke up at an unearthly hour. first time after decades i actually woke up after 10am. felt so accomplished because i replenished my luxury sleep that was lacked during school days, about to complete my maths tutorial and went for a jog around the neighbourhood! nothing can beat this, when life goes at it’s own pace without much worries.
well, while i was about to...
“I am proud to be a Christian. I am not ashamed to say it to anyone. I would feel...”
– (via possessingmydestiny)
i started the race with God.
i want to end it with God.
yes, i will take the narrow path despite the positive infinity number of obstacles ahead of me.
today, God taught me an important truth and that is ’ suck it up’
yes, it requires a lot of humility and energy. however, afteral, we are ask to serve people around us. the truth is, serving is never an easy job. it requires one to step out of your own comfort zone and dispel the fear that is stopping you.
thank you God, for a wonderful yet tiring day spent. (:
‘ms tan can i change my subject combi?’
‘yes, you can do it next year in jc1’
ruijun: roflmaozxzxzxz !
yay, today marks the end of my pw life. honestly, i do enjoy the one year long of pw lessons i undergo. i enjoy how we can work together, smoking our way through and as a team, how we aim to meet the dateline.
perhaps i am lucky. but i do not hate pw, not even a single bit. i may grumble at times because of the datelines of written reports but i did enjoy how we are able to work as a group.
...
perhaps i am more free now and am able to think deeper and read more widely about many things. it is then i started to realize that there are so many death cases happening. just recently, the downtown east death case due to multiple stabbing etc. another case when this 14year old girl committed suicide due to relationship problems.
many a times, this people are searching high and low for a...
“Just because I laugh a lot, doesn’t mean my life is easy. Just because I have a...”
– (via thediarists)
October 2010
4 posts
Feel pretty enlightened once again! (:
i am always amazed how God take away things from me and give me again. to be honest, i will prefer to be an ordinary person. i seldom take extraordinary route because i am afraid of failure, at times. today, i realized that i often under estimate my capability in doing stuffs. in short, i prefer to stay in my own comfort zone doing things that are within my...
promo is over. honestly, this is one of the worst exam i had ever went through. so wish me good luck. perhaps i need God more than just pure luck.
finally, i have got time to dwell into deep thoughts. many things went through my mind recently as i start to question myself fundamentals stuffs. i then realized that i am well sheltered since i stepped into hihs. life’s pretty smooth sailing...
Many random thoughts kept popping up and i think i should stop myself from thinking negatively. i want to go somewhere solitude, where i can listen to God’s voice and slower my pace of life.
i want to have the luxury of time to do things that i always want to do. when can this day approach?
i am lethargic. perhaps, i just need a sweet dream to rejuvenate myself for the upcoming hurdle.
...
September 2010
1 post
my 1 week of honey moon had passed and school is going to reopen tomorrow. Thinking through, i am kind of afraid how life is gonna be like. Today, i realized that we are influence by our environment and friends around us. As i was sitting at a corner and observe how people behave and do things, it shock me a little of how different people behave and react. to the extent, i felt a little bit...
Perhaps my life is filled with too many responsibilities that sometimes i take them as a chore. Things are getting so much more complicated and it’s so draining to see how things become from bad to worst. surely, much disappointments dawned upon me and yet, i need to learn to be strong.
i spent my morning thinking thinking and thinking. maybe i need to trust God a little bit more....
August 2010
10 posts
i want to sit down and start thinking. i want to know why things happened due to fundamental reasons. i am sick of accepting facts as it is.
i want to think.
Recently, I’ve been pretty upset about certain things and it makes me feel uncertain about my future. I perhaps had lost the chance in certain areas and it just somehow makes me feel demoralized.
Life is just filled with comparison because we as human will never satisfy with what we have. We tend to compare with people around us and the cycle goes on. when we entered high school, we...
i am afraid..
can anyone comprehend that?
))))),:
just recently, God spoke to me so much on being grateful with things we have. Many a times, our prayer lists will usually outweighs the list for thanksgiving. When was the last time you actually counted your blessings and give thanks to God?
we are living in such a fast pacing society that at times, we tend to forget all these small details. and more often, we tend to take them for granted. all...
somehow, i hope that time were to be an infinite resource. so, i can do everything i want, including spending time with those people i treasure. but somehow, this is impossible for me to achieve.
sigh.
okay, allow me to whine first. firstly, I’ve infinite amount of homework to complete during the national day holiday. but still, im anticipating the upcoming holiday because i will have sufficient time to chiong my tutorials, catch up with friends and talk crap.
i shall be that superhero who finish all my homework before school starts on Wednesday. but anyway, today was really a...
July 2010
7 posts
There are so many things to juggle with and they are getting out of hand. i hate to end myself in a situation when i feel so hopeless and chui. and practically, i can do nothing to minimize impact of the problem. i hate this feeling.
sometimes i do wonder whether did i give my best in doing things. i want to serve to my best and not compromising any standard for the kingdom of God. but just...
somehow, i feel that JC life is really tough and draining. Just few minutes ago, i was ranting to wanfen how bad school life is with so many dead lines to meet. However, i should utilize my time to sleep instead of ranting non-stop.
the idea of juggling so many things at a goal really freaks me up. perhaps i really need to depend God more and more. i don’t want to do my work for the sake of...
before getting back to my work, i shall blog down my chain of thoughts. today, as i was running 5km along the high way, i learnt an important value of being selfless. God just somehow reminds me that nothing on earth will last. Secular achievements are just temporal trademarks to make us content. but at the end of the day, where can the string of distinctions bring us too? Yes, it may allow us to...
Lethargic is perhaps the best word to sum up my entire week. Teachers are starting to bombard us with infinite amount of workload and expect us to complete them on time. well, to keep long story short, I’ve got thousand and one reasons to explain why i am tired.
I dreaded myself to music practice. You know, i can actually utilize the time more wisely by catching up with my sleep and etc....
i am uncertain of so many things. i wonder how things will turn up as time flies.
As i was on the way home from MM retreat, i started to question myself about many things. Honestly speaking, i do have a plan for myself about what i am going to do in the future after disciplining people up. ’ Is that really God’s plan?’ this question suddenly hits me so much that i started to do some soul searching.
As human, we will tend to take the shortest route to reach...