my 1 week of honey moon had passed and school is going to reopen tomorrow. Thinking through, i am kind of afraid how life is gonna be like. Today, i realized that we are influence by our environment and friends around us. As i was sitting at a corner and observe how people behave and do things, it shock me a little of how different people behave and react. to the extent, i felt a little bit uncomfortable/ weird.
perhaps this is how people are being differentiated. life is just so unfair and filled with many complex situation that can hardly be solve. problems and disasters are happening simultaneously that we take all these as a norm. At times, life can be as it peak when we think that the world is totally at our side. Few minutes later, things unpleasant happened and we will start to think that the world is going against us etc.
At times, i do wonder, when can all these stuffs stop. it’s a vicious cycle that nobody can stop. once, i’ve got a friend asked me, ’ why God created all these problems? isn’t life so much better without them? ‘
i ponder this question for many days. at the same time, i asked God why. and i concluded that problems are there for a reason. Just like how God created the world, He created problems for a reason too. if life were to be too smooth sailing, we as human, will tend to take them for granted, don’t we? Through particular problem in life, we learn the art of depending on God more.
but on the other hand, i am against the idea of treating God as a Santa Claus. it’s such a hypocrite if we do. come on, life can be better than just asking favour from God.
So, maybe problems are always there in a vicious cycle for us to realize that our problems will definitely be smaller than God’s mighty amazing supernatural power. just learn to magnify God in the midst of problems.
well, the reason of me posting these is because.. i am afraid of the beginning of term 4. i am afraid that i will screw things up. i am afraid. but amidst of of these anxiety, i know that whatever things that i am doing, i want to please God and not man.
