well, time flies. it literally flies. just few more days, i will be stepping into a brand new years with new challenges, new breakthroughs and new experiences. I was recounting how has 2010 been and many thoughts went through my mind. the truth is, those thoughts that went through my minds were not very positive.
i could remember vividly how much i struggle with so many things. at times, i hope that my life can be like a clown, the ability to juggle so many things at once. there are thousand and one instances when i just feel like rising a white flag in surrender. i cried out to God like nobody’s business. worst still, i quarreled and debated with God.
and now, as i look back my life, i will say that 2010 is not an easy year for me. there were so many instances when i complained non-stop. but God just remind me constantly that He is my source of strength and hope. there are times when my academic didn’t go well, but God assured me to have faith and trust in Him. there are times when i reached home at 10pm and yet i have to force myself to sit down and complete my tutorials through God’s strength. there are times when God purposely make me sick so that i can take a good rest from my hectic life.
so many times God put me to the test. and yet, so many times He pulled me through the test.
sometimes, i wonder why does God use me. the truth is.. i am not talented. i cannot speak well. i cannot play the guitar. i don’t have much talent. but God amazingly, use me.
well, how my life gonna be if i am not serving God. uhmzx
