shall type out a short post before proceeding with my night life.
well, today is really a day that sets me thinking about the things in my life. it makes me wonder what i want to be in the future. it makes me wonder how my life will be like the very next morning when i open my eyes. life is just filled with thousand and one unexpected predicaments that one can never imagine.
today went down to some scholarship and career fair with some of my classmates. friends around me know what they want to be in the future. they have their plans. i questioned them, what’s the main reason of them choosing those jobs. most of their answers are just because of stable income etc.
true, income is such an important factor when it comes to choosing of job. this world is just so superficial. hope i wish everyone on earth is just another product of Mother Theresa. Perhaps, life will be so much easier and less sophisticated. but well, that’s a rather ideal case.
i told my friends that i want to be a social worker and they were all taken a back, advising me to that that as a part time volunteer work instead. the truth is, social worker may not earn high income. but after thinking again and again, i’ve concluded that i want to do get a job that gives me a platform to impact lives and help the youths.
yes, this may sound so ten year series answer coming from a Christian. but i evaluated myself again and again, i asked myself whether i am trying to be politically correct and such. but nah, deep down in my heart, i still believe in impacting lives. the satisfaction one get after seeing how people’s life is transformed is what really matters to me. the joy is so overwhelming and unexplainable.
it’s more joyful than scoring 100marks for Maths. because i know.. scoring a distinction for a subject is just a mere indication on how good your maths is and it’s just a temporal satisfaction. but then, once people’s life is transformed, it will stay there forever, leaving a footprint behind.
life transformation may seem a big word and too ideal to achieve. but, it’s really something God puts in my heart. perhaps, i should stop searching for people’s approval. i just want to tell my friends arnd me, how good God is. because life transformation fundamentally still start off with God.
so i can conclude that in the future, i don’t need to get a high ranked job. i just want to be a teacher/social worker, to help people who’s life is simply… screwed.
i want to tell them the answer to the emptiness. because everything boils down to that God shape hole that only God himself can fill. no secular achievements can mend the empty hole.
