just ended hope conference and there’s too many thoughts running through my mind. i could remember vividly how much i struggle to get out of house on Saturday morning. part of me is so worry about the upcoming prelims. it makes me feel so uncertain and lost. but i chose to pack my stuff and went down to Stadium.
perhaps God always use such method to test my level of trust and faith in Him. God never fails to speak to me during those time when i try running away. He is always there to reveal His love and assurance.
If you were to ask me who’s the best story writer on earth, i’ll definitely proudly say that it is God. God use such moment to remind me the importance of having a burden for people.
Honestly speaking, Singapore’s education system is filled with thousand and one flaws. pardon me, but i really do think Singapore’s education system makes me feel like a robot when i never to be a slave of my textbooks.
God reminded me through the conference that fundamentally, it’s still God who truly matters. results may bring me somewhere. but i am sure that somewhere isn’t the place where i want to stay for eternity.
after this conference, i am really quite sure that what i want to be in the future. i want to transform life through the small little things God tasked me to do. i neither need to earn millions of dollars nor aspire to live in big flats. i just want to lead ordinary life with extraordinary mission.
i saw how God uses me to transform life and that’s something that really leave a footprint in my life. i just touches me as i reflect back and see how God use such a cui person like me to help others.
okay, i may sound like another mother Theresa( though i know im far from her standard) but then again, i aspire to study hard and in the future, i can use the path of education and go some countries to help the less privilege.
i want to be blessed to be a blessing.
dear God, break my heart for what breaks Yours. ultimately, it’s You i worship and surrender.
