There are so many things to juggle with and they are getting out of hand. i hate to end myself in a situation when i feel so hopeless and chui. and practically, i can do nothing to minimize impact of the problem. i hate this feeling.
sometimes i do wonder whether did i give my best in doing things. i want to serve to my best and not compromising any standard for the kingdom of God. but just somehow, i think that i have failed. i hate to comprehend the fact that school is throwing the j1s with so many responsibility. at times, i really do hope that i can be like a clown and master the skill of juggling without failing.
God, i want to give my best. can you please alter my timetable/ change the sch’s system so that i will have more time in the afternoon?
i am scared/ afraid. but i know that i need to persevere.
